Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Tuesday, September 19, 2006

candy took ask me to update.i'm updating.i updated

miss u=) `

Monday, August 07, 2006
Monday, August 07, 2006

finally here to update.
i just wanted to tell you i'm sorry.i didn't mean to say all those to you yesterday.i don't want you to be sad and i just wanted you to be with daddy because i thought he could make you happy.you're happy with him.isn't it?i don't want to lose contact with you.why must we go to the extent of torturing eachother?not lovers,friends can?or do we just need time to calm down and not think of all this and make us forget eachother completely as lovers,and continue being friends after that?don't cry.we'll be like the past.have those memories.of being friends.go on.be with daddy.and be happy.all i ask for is your happiness.that's it.never leve me.the memories.will not be kept in my mind,but in my heart.i'm sorry

miss u=) `

Sunday, July 23, 2006
Sunday, July 23, 2006

You lied again,and i mean AGAIN.Ru guo ni ai guo wo,ni bu hui jiu zhe yang zhou

miss u=) `

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Wednesday, July 19, 2006

i am super useless.can't do anything.i think i should just leave.have the feeling that you don't like me and don't want me to get close to you.don't ask me why because it's just the feeling i'm having.how i wish i could be there to concole and comfort you.but i wasn't able to.i broke down initially.i'm damn fucking useless.someone tell me how can i be useful to you!i won't know where to find you if you're missing.i'm useless.i can't cheer you up when you're in a bad mood.i'm useless.i can only see you cry and change place with jacq.i'm useless.i'm just useless.you've been treating me coldly.i didn't mind.i'm so super sorry.i'll bring you to esplanade one day.go there watch stars.i'm sorry.
if I had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
and you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
but it never felt this strong
our dreams are young
and we both know
they'll take us where we want to go
hold me now
touch me now I
don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much I love
you'll only change my hole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you
if the read a head is not so easy
our love will lead a way for us
like a guiding star
i'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
i'll help you see forever too
hold me now
touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
your oughta know by how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
i'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you oughta know by now how much I love
you'll only change my hole life through
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

miss u=) `

Friday, July 14, 2006
Friday, July 14, 2006

i promise you the promises i gave you.i'm touched.

miss u=) `

Thursday, July 06, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006

when can i tell myself it's time to stop doing all this and stop contacting you?when can i let myself do all this things?when will i be able to handle things without help from others?i've read and seen.so why am i hesistating?i know nothing will change all this.yes.go ai her.if you can,don't reply all the messages i send and phone calls i called.all these won't stop until i can accept all this and move on with my life.forget you?difficult.you forgetting me will be easier.sorry for my moodswings and all.

miss u=) `

Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Wednesday, June 28, 2006

don't know how many days i haven't been online already.we got 2nd for youth cup and school starts 2 days after that.1st day of school i didn't attend and went to pork's house.suppose to meet her after that but end up didn't.tue i went to school!!i got a maths homework!going to meet them at causeway so went home bathe quickly and went out.meet xiaoyuan under her block and went to woodlands together.thinking whether to take bus or train so i called her and mummy said that they're still at jacq's house-_-"since we have so much time me and xiaoyuan went to ntuc walk 1 round then go take bus.when we reach there they at jurong east only.so i chatted with mummy and xiao yuan with jacq.when they reach we went to mos to study.moodswin!stupid me.moodswing over little things.after that went to foodcourt because we were chased out by mos staff.haha.stayed at foodcourt very long and laughed alot.keep laughing at eachother and tried to get close to mummy with xiao yuan and jacq's help.we're close but not as close as they are.lolz.after that eat and send mummy home.did something.hahaha
sorry mummy.i didn't mean to have moodswing when you're around.zhen de dui bu qi.i'll try be more initiative hao mah?but no matter what don't leave me ok?
thx friends for all the encouragement you people gave.i won't give her up.and if there's a day you chooses her,i'll leave but be there for you silently.that's a promise i will never break.
yuhao,xiaoyuan,jacq,jiaxin,xiaoqian,buizhen,pork and alot more.love you guys

miss u=) `

Saturday, June 24, 2006
Saturday, June 24, 2006

my mummy zhu don't know how to take care of herself!must get someone to take care of her.no la she already got someone to take care of her don't want me to take care of her liao:'(kkz la mummy must take care of yourself hao mah?your elbow,knee,ankle and fingers.you keep injuring yourself make me heart pain.lolz.take care hao mah!!zhang da liao be mummy liao leh.zhe de shi mummy ZHU

miss u=) `